1/14/13

It is sad... 1 month that those precious 20 kids and wonderful 6 adults are no longer with us.  I signed the Sandy Hook Promise.

The morning went by pretty well so I was surprised when I got a call from Darin at work surprised that I was still alive!  Obviously A told Alexandra (who told her mom - who told Darin) that Darin killed me, that the step-mom was trying to kill her and that her dad hates her.   Waiting for CPS to come a knockin'!!!

Another surprise, JH left his heater on all night Fri because he was going to wk on Sat am and didn't want it to be cold.   The whole building could have burned down.  His room smelled like a fire had taken place.  Good thing he went in as early as he did.  He wants his walls washed, carpets cleaned and a new wall heater.

I went with Christina to Beverly's Fabric store during lunch.  We got K sandwiches on the way back. It was a good, busy day. 

When I picked up the kids and we were in the car A asked if Darin was in jail.  She then proceeded to tell me the "nightmare" she told Alexandra.  Alexa said she was a mermaid and Darin and I killed her mermaid mom and we were trying to kill her next.  Where do kids come up with this?  I'm so glad we have an appt with a Behavioral Specialist on Wed.  Not only that but J said that he could beat me down to the ground but he didn't want to.  I would go to heaven and he would go to jail.  Did I say already that I am glad we have an appt with a Behavioral Specialist soon?!?!

We had a good evening.  The kids played outside quite a bit while I got leftovers ready.  I worked a lot on A's school project and she cut out pictures.   I had been asking the kids to go brush their teeth and go to bed but at 7:50 they were still up!  Jake was saying something smart aleky to me and I got upset and squeezed his face and said REALLY!?!  I proceeded to give him a light smack on his cheek.  I had never treated him like that before. :( 

I had to leave the room (feeling major guilt) and heard him talking with Daddy.  He was telling Daddy that he didn't want to kill me but now he does want to.  That got Darin MAD!!!!   Jake got a spanking.  I came when Darin was coming out and I whispered to him that J probably doesn't even know what he is talking about.   He was crying so hard I picked him up and held him tight.  Jake then was telling me again what he said to his dad and that I would be in heaven and he would be in jail.   I let him know that we don't say things like that about anybody.  God calls us to love one another and we are to treat others the way we want to be treated.  I laid him in bed and he said he doesn't like earth and pointing up said he wished he was there now.

Lord, help Darin and I know how to teach our kids love, kindness, forgiveness, patience, humbleness, grace, sincerity, gentleness, goodness, faith, temperance, etc...  PLEASE~ SOONER THAN LATER!